Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Week in My Life - Monday, December 2


People.

There are no pictures in this post. And for that I apologize.

My day yesterday was nothing short of typical and boring. Nothing super eventful happened. It was just a Monday.

But there is one thing that stuck out to me on Monday.

Music. Lyrics.

I've written before about how music fuels my soul. Speaks to me and makes me think. Yesterday, it seemed as though music was sending me a very specific message.

Have faith. Believe. Know that things will happen as they should. Enjoy. Live.

There were two songs that I have listened to a million times each. But for some reason, they really struck me yesterday.

One was "I'm Alive" by Kenny Chesney and Dave Matthews. And here are the first three verses:

So damn easy to say that life's so hard
Everybody's got their share of battle scars
As for me, I'd like to thank my lucky stars that I'm alive and well
It'd be easy to add up all the pain
And all the dreams you sat and watched go up in flames
Dwell on the wreckage as it smolders in the rain
But not me, I'm alive
And today you know that's good enough for me
Breathin' in and out's a blessing can't you see
Today's the first day of the rest of my life
And I'm alive and well, I'm alive and well
Wow.

It hit me. I'm the queen of getting really, really, really down on myself, on life, when I have a bad day. Or a bad hour. Or a bad 10 minutes.  And yesterday morning, as I drove to work thinking, and dwelling, and being frustrated and upset...these words spoke to me.

In the part that Dave Matthews sings, there is this line:

It's good for the soul when there's not a soul in sight
My gosh, is that true for me. I love the peacefulness of being alone sometimes. I love just getting lost in myself, in the silence, in my writing, in a book. After the hustle and bustle of the day at work, with Benjamin, at the gym, whatever...I love just...being. It IS good for my soul.

Then, on the way home from work, on the way to the gym, "Just Might (Make Me Believe)" by Sugarland came on. This? This song was one that really made me think yesterday. The chorus:
But if you look in my eyes
And tell me we'll be alright
If you promise never to leave
You just might make me believe
Deep stuff. Something that tells me, "Believe in the people you care for. Have faith in the people you surround yourself with. Trust. Just...be."

I needed that.

Yesterday was full of music. Music that spoke to me. Music that made me think.

It was a quiet day, yet full of incredible sound and thought.

I love those days.


5 comments:

  1. It's OK to feel this way from time to time. We all have down days. I enjoy listening to music to fuel the soul as well. There's something so comforting in these lyrics. Just remember that you are a light in so many people's lives. Stop being so hard on yourself and remember how wonderful you are!

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  2. music is an incredible thing. I absolutely crave time alone, and taking a little 'mental health day' for myself yesterday was a start (though the husband was home too, so i was not alone, boo). Sometimes you just need to be alone, to allow your thoughts to spin and settle, to remember who YOU are before you can be anyone or anything to others. Great songs, by the way ;-)

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  3. Days like those are much needed from time to time. Thanks for sharing :)

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  4. Music is so important- different songs define diferent moments in our lives. I am glad you found yourself in song <3

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  5. Sometimes a music captivates me or describes my mood so precisely that I stick it on repeat (about 20 times)
    Glad to hear it lifted your day!

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