We are five days away from September being over.
Didn't August just end? Didn't school just start? And we're already almost another month in?
I know I write this a lot, time flies. I'm constantly blown away by how fast. It's insane to me.
First of all, let's start with some exciting news.
I must have lost weight.
I say "must have" because I have no idea if I have or not. I haven't weighed myself for real in weeks. But, I've either lost weight, or toned up/slimmed out in some way. Because a fleece jacket I bought last fall, and a hoodie I have that were both very tight around my waist in the spring, to the point where I really couldn't wear them because I felt so self conscious about how tight they were, both fit well now. I wore both today (in fact, I have the hoodie on right now), and I'm comfy, they aren't tight, and I didn't have to constantly pull them down over my butt. So...yay? Yay!
I've started the Couch to 5k program...again...because apparently I am a glutton for punishment in this whole "I want to be a runner" thing. Apparently putting myself through the torture of getting over shin splints, and finding things that work for me, and literally dripping sweat after a half an hour of walk/run intervals is fun for me. So I've started again. Although this time I have The Coach to help me out with keeping on track and motivating me. In the past, I had pretty much no support at all. Having someone that checks up on me, asks me how I'm doing, and sends me texts like "Yes you do!! LET'S DO THIS! LET'S GO!" when I send a text that says, "do not want to be here (the gym)" is definitely a huge help. I've been hitting the gym and lifting too, which I love. Eventually The Coach will help me lift free weights, which terrifies me, but for now I'm working with the machines which as my good friend Jen says, as long as I'm doing it, that's all that matters. So...yay? Yay!
So there's that stuff.
I've also been thinking a lot about life, and what I want out of it, and setting goals and moving forward and bettering myself in order to give my son the very best life he deserves.
I'm using #3dailygoals as part of that. And I will use it to a larger extent in the coming weeks. Are you following me on Instagram to see how #3dailygoals works? You should. And you should join in.
But on a grander, greater, larger, amazing, huge, incredible, goal related scale, a friend of mine told me about the concept of a "dream board." I'm pretty sure that I've heard of this in the past, and I've probably been doing a lot of board dreaming in my life (um...hello Pinterest? One giant dream board!), but I've never focused it on goals that I can achieve through one specific action. And that's what I'm doing with this:
There is an action that goes along with making these things happen, working toward making them happen. Right now, that action is in the very beginning stages. As it grows, I'll tell you all about it.
But right now I'm just going to say, I'm very, very excited. It'll be very hard work, but it will all be worth it. I know it.
My well being has seriously just been...amazing. I have my moments. A week or so ago I was in a piss poor mood. I was down and out and felt like everyone was bailing on me. It lasted about two days, and going to the gym snapped me out of it. Overall, I feel incredible. Happier than I have in...I don't even know how long. In greater control of my life, my emotions, than I have felt in almost two years. To the point where I have completely weened myself off my anti-depressants.
I'm in awe of myself. And what I have done.
Not to toot my own horn but really...I feel pretty kick ass right now.
I hope YOUR well being is incredible. I hope that you feel on top of the world too. I hope you are finding the positive in every day. And if you aren't...what can you do to change that?