Listen. I am the queen of living life in ruts. I lived in a rut for years after my son was born. I lived life in a rut for about a year after my separation and divorce. I would put on a mask and pretend everything was a-ok, but inside I was fading. Life circumstances made my fade and rut even worse. It was a dark, crappy time.
The last 9 months or so a lot of that has changed. I still get in ruts - in fact, I'm in one today - but I am a hell of a lot more conscious of it all when it happens. I try really hard NOT to take my attitude and pissed off feelings out on people I love - Benjamin, my parents, my boyfriend, my best friend - and I make an effort to just keep to myself if I have to, breathe deep and stay positive.
It's hard work. And a lot of times it literally gives me a headache. I have one now, in fact.
I draw on inspiration from other people who I think are amazing. My son...my gosh that kid is my reason for breathing. The worst mood in the world can be lifted by his voice, his smile, his hugs and his endless proclamations of "I love you SO MUCH, Mommy." My support system - my parents, my boyfriend, my best friend, extended family. Then specific friends in my life who just rock. Some of them being some of the coolest and strongest people that I know.
One of those people is my friend Jen.
About a month (or so...I honestly don't even know) ago, she shared an amazing video on facebook that has changed my life. It has helped me to be more positive. To focus. To actually pursue my goals, my dreams, changes I want to make. I listen to it at least once a day, every single day. It's frigging amazing. And I just wanted to take a second to share it, because omgIcan'teven.
I can. I can. I can.
Where is your passion? Drive? Where is your inspiration?