It's late. 9pm on Sunday evening to be exact, and I just felt like writing. Just to write about nothing in particular at all.
Life has been crazy and hectic and awesome all at the same time. Work is insanity as we bring one school year to a close and start working on opening the next.
Life outside of work is crazy and beautiful and fun and unknown and perfect all at the same time.
I've been spending a lot of time with The Yankee Fan which has been absolutely fantastic. However, talk to me in about 3 or 4 weeks, when the Red Sox and Yankees play for the first time in the 2014 MLB season We'll see how fantastic it is after that. *wink wink*
I love spending time with people that just make me smile, and make me laugh, and can challenge me and make me feel like I can do anything. That's what The Yankee Fan does. We have so much fun together, even when we do nothing but stay at home and watch ridiculous movies like The World's End.
Spending time with The Yankee Fan is good for my soul.
I am trying to live my best life yet. I have plenty of moments of frustration and stress and anger, just as I always have. It is part of who I am. But I am trying to live a calmer life, with deeper breaths and more happy moments. For the most part, I feel like I am achieving that. But I still have some work to do. Every day stresses make it hard on me sometimes. But, I make it through.
And just like that, time is up.
Sunday, March 9, 2014
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
Today is Ash Wednesday, the start of the Lenten season for Christians across the world. As is tradition, I have given up something for Lent, as a sacrifice through Easter.
Inspired by my very good friend Megan at A Baby Makes Four, I am giving up night snacking. Night snacking is by far my biggest downfall in my journey to get healthy, so while this may not seem like a sacrifice, it is indeed!
I've also added another level to this. If I slip up at all? Rather than simply having the feeling of guilt and self loathing I normally have after these night snacking episodes, I will add one dollar to my family's rice bowl. My mistake will in turn help feed families in need. That will help me feel less bad about myself, and simply move on rather than wallowing.
In addition, I've stepped up my working out routine. I couldn't work out at all last week because I was doing
Don't worry. I'll blog about every single step I take in my training to this exciting milestone!
I've also finally signed up to start kickboxing again at my local ILoveKickboxing.com gym. My first class is next Monday night, and I am so very excited.
Eating wise, things have been going really well. I did a detox last week. No crazy shakes or juices or pills. Just eating nothing but veggies and fruit. And let me tell you. It was hell on earth.
My leader and some other people in our group felt awesome! And energized! And happy! And great! I hated every second of it. I resented not being able to have protein. Not being able to have coffee. Not being able to have a cracker. Sure I tried to get creative with my meals so I wouldn't feel bored, but vegetables are boring to me in general. So it was crap.
The good thing is that I lost 3" and 2.5 pounds over the course of the week. But still. It was awful.
I've been using My Fitness Pal and my Perfectly Imperfect Mamas journal. You can download your own PIM journal pages here!! I've found that journaling has really been helping me this time around. I write down daily affirmations, my thoughts on my day, and throughout Lent I'll be adding writing down 3 things I was grateful for each day. It's been really awesome really seeing what I eat every day, and reflecting on my days all in the same place. I also use it for my #3DailyGoals, to do lists, and blog tasks. It's been awesome!
So how are YOU doing?
Monday, March 3, 2014
Last week, I saw two different posts on Facebook. One was a status question from one of my favorite "mom blogs" - Scary Mommy - that said, "You know you're a stay at home mom when..." and another was an article on rockfordparent.com titled "You know you are a working mom when..."
I read the article and read several of the hundreds of comments on the Facebook status. And while my label is "working mom," I found myself nodding in agreement to both the article and the comments.
Because I am A MOM.
I understand the need for camaraderie. The need for us to commiserate with other stay at home moms or working moms about our daily struggles, trials or triumphs. But, when at the end of the day, we all truly have so much in common..can't we just say...
You know you're a mom when...
...you hear the pitter patter of little feet at 5:13 in the morning on a Saturday, and simultaneously think "son of a...already?" and scoop them up for snuggles at the same time.
...you are at your wits end because the office, or the house, or the world is making you insane and a tight, tiny hug makes the stress melt away.
...your child(ren) is/are the first thing you consider when you make nearly any decision.
...shopping alone is bliss, because it means no one is beckoning for your attention and you can just be.
...the day has been the longest day of life, or seems that way, you can't wait for bedtime, and then you just keep snuggling them, drinking in their soft hair, soft skin, little fingers and little nose.
...nothing is more important than saying yes to the request of "Mommy, will you play with me?"
...girls night out almost always turns into an evening of wine, laughter...and talking about your kids with your closest mom friends. Working moms. Stay at home moms. Moms. Supporting each other, laughing and maybe even crying together, all the while thumbing your nose at "the mommy wars."
Because, you know you're a mom when you've had enough of the polarization, join forces with other MOMS and show your children what support, confidence in your choices, and pride in everything you do every day truly looks like.
You know you're a mom when...now you fill in the blank.
Monday, February 17, 2014
At least I try to.
And I admit, that sometimes? I don't pay much attention to the homily. Sometimes I just let my mind wander. Sometimes I am wrangling a 3 year old and keeping him from crawling under the pews. Sometimes, I just have no idea what is being talked about.
And sometimes? I am so moved by a homily that I am compelled to write a blog post about it.
The gospel at mass on February 9 was Matthew 5:13 - 16.
Jesus said to his disciples:And my pastor had quite possibly the greatest homily that I have heard in a year. At least.
“You are the salt of the earth.
But if salt loses its taste, with what can it be seasoned?
It is no longer good for anything
but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.
You are the light of the world.
A city set on a mountain cannot be hidden.
Nor do they light a lamp and then put it under a bushel basket;
it is set on a lampstand,
where it gives light to all in the house.
Just so, your light must shine before others,
that they may see your good deeds
and glorify your heavenly Father.”
He discussed salt. Just...salt, and what it can do. Three things that salt can, and does, do.
Salt can season.
Salt can preserve.
Salt can destroy.
And he referred to the gospel, the words of Jesus, "YOU are the salt of the earth."
YOU can season the earth. We're all different, right? We all bring our own "seasoning" to the world. Our own spiciness and zest. Our seasons, our spices...they make the world interesting. They make the world exciting, and flavorful.
YOU are the salt of the earth.
YOU can preserve the earth. And not just in the environmental sense. But in the sense of preserving people. Preserving humanity. You can reach out to those in need. Volunteer. Lend a hand to a neighbor. A shoulder to cry on for a family member. An ear for a friend. Preserve humanity, preserve kindness, preserve the earth.
YOU are the salt of the earth.
YOU can destroy. Yes. Destroy. Salt can destroy as well as it can preserve, and in this sense, you can destroy evil. You can spread good. You can see something wrong and stop it. Stop the bullying. Stop the racism. Stop the sexism. Stop anything you see that is evil. That is wrong.
You can destroy in order to preserve so you may continue to flavor, the earth!!
And you may be thinking, "well I'm not Christian, I'm not Catholic, this doesn't apply to me."
YOU. You reading this. You are the salt of the earth just by being in it. By flavoring the earth with your differences. By preserving humanity and kindness. By destroying evil.
YOU are the salt of the earth. By being a good person. By living your life outside of your own safe little bubble.
YOU are the salt of the earth.
How will you flavor, preserve, destroy?